Lindsay In Wonderland

It's quite possible I've gone mad.

The Mad Hatter: "You're not the same as you were before. You were much more... 'muchier'. You lost your 'muchness'".
Alice: "My 'muchness'"?
The Mad Hatter: [pointing to Alice's heart] "In there."

Being that I've had the past few days to myself - more or less - I pulled out my journal and made an attempt to process the last year and a half. While it's been a journey that changed me in many positive ways, I sense I've lost a part of myself along the way - my "muchness".

"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is 'who in the world am I?' Ah, that's the great puzzle!" - Alice from Alice in Wonderland

I'm beginning by asking myself six questions:
1. Who am I becoming?
2. What do I like/dislike about who I'm becoming?
3. What pieces of myself did I lose that I'd like to find and what pieces do I want to leave unfound?
4. Who do I want to be? What is my story?
5. What do I need to live life well?
6. What tangible changes do I want to make in my life?

I know these barely scratch the surface, but it's the only place I know where to start.

"I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, Sir, because I'm not myself you see." - Alice from Alice in Wonderland

Maybe, just maybe I'll find my way out of this mad rabbit hole and recapture my "muchness".