Shit Happens

It’s raining. Again.

It ALWAYS rains here.


Rain ALWAYS makes me feel depressed. My uncle says I need more Vitamin D than most. Seattle would push me over the edge. I’m sure of it.

My aunt has cancer. Or had. I’m not really sure. I found out in an email today. It felt like someone punched me in the stomach. Not once, but twice.

I walked home in the rain and secretly hoped lightening would strike. Kind of like nature punishing me like life seemed to be punishing my aunt.

I am extreme and my responses come in waves of intense emotions. I don’t really wish lightening would strike but when news of this nature reach me heart I think all of life should STOP.’t.


Doctors found a tumor in my friend’s liver on Thursday; I found out just ten minutes ago. He had cancer when he was 14 years old. He is getting married this month. His wife is beautiful.

About a month and a half ago my friend was diagnosed with a form of cancer. She is an amazingly strong woman. But like my aunt and friend, she doesn’t want to be sad. She too, is living life and pressing on.





I want to throw myself onto the ground, lay in the fetal position and cry. They would tell me I am being ridiculous – which I might be – but WHY CAN’T I BE UPSET?



  1. Powerful. My heart sank for you when I read this. Cancer IS dumb. I am so sorry. I am praying for you, and I love you.

    Be upset. Crying on the ground is sometimes the right thing. I really miss you.

  2. I'm so sorry for your news. I will be praying for you.

  3. Sorry to hear the news, Lindsay. You have a BIG heart & that's a wonderful thing. It's o.k. to FEEL, it's o.k. to be UPSET... I feel for you friend.


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