Dear[est] Sarah and Dana –

I want to say thank you. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your lives in good times and in bad. Thank you for allowing me to be so close to your most precious possessions. Thank you for allowing me to meet Harper Joy – she changed my heart for the best. Thank you for giving me the honor to serve you – moments I will cherish for the rest of my life.

Harper Joy allowed me to see God as good, very good – something I lost in all my travels. I knew in my head He was good, but somehow in the last 1.5 years that truth escaped my heart. Yet, in Harper’s life and death I saw hope, I saw kindness and I saw God as good. The hard shell that had built itself around my heart cracked because of Harper and I am forever grateful for this little life that changed me to the core. I am a new person and it is beautiful.

There are two incidences when I was with you that I consider sacred, holy moments. Moments I will hold on to for the rest of my life. The first happened when I took photos in Harper’s room. It was just the three of you, and I was hidden behind the machines. The room was quiet and thick with His presence. I lowered my camera and just watched – I knew He was there with you three. It was breathtaking.

The second took place when I washed Sarah’s hair. You leaning over the tub, Londyn playing in the water and I conditioning your hair. Again, the room felt thick. I was massaging your head and in that moment I felt so completely honored to be serving you. There was no other place I’d rather be.

Please know your family is always in my prayers. I will continue to pray for you four as you learn to walk out this new life. I pray grace, His peace and nearness. I love you all with my whole heart.

Love,
Lindsay